One Day at a Time

How to tell you all this...
I'm sure my last post (if you read it) left you wondering or at least gave you a clue.
Sadly, because I've opened up quite a bit on this blog, I feel like I should let you know something about what's happened in my personal life. I can't exactly hide it since he became so present on this blog anyway.
Its sad since not one week ago, I was saying how happy I was about my relationship.
And now I'm writing to tell you that it's over.

 It was beautiful but far too brief.
And just as quickly as it started, it ended.
He was as gentle as he could be about it, but it's still left me reeling.

What I want is to disappear. To melt away into oblivion and escape this emotional wreckage I’m creating. 

However, don't think badly of him.
Because I know he's only trying to do what seems like the right thing.

Perhaps it's because he's stronger than I am to admit it. We both got so serious about each other so fast, and after trying to see a future for us...he couldn't.
And what would be the purpose of continuing to date and fall more deeply in love if we can't get that happy ending? It would be more gut-wrenching than what we feel now.

He just had to be so damn logical when it was too late.

I never knew it could hurt this deeply. And I want to bang my head against a wall because my logical side keeps saying "You weren't even together five months, what are you so worked up about? You're only eighteen, relax, you've got a long time to meet Mr. Right."
And then my heart replies.
"But what if I did, and he's slipped right by?"

I'm not going to linger around for him though. He let me go first. And I am not a girl who will wait around in the shadows, hoping some guy will come back for me. Perhaps I have too much pride, but I cannot risk him hurting me this deeply again. The only thing I truly hate about all of this, is that I gave him a piece of my heart.  I really, truly did. Its only now I feel the ache from that missing part, and I know that whoever comes along next will have that much less of me.
Because he'll still have it.

But I will move on.
I will be strong.
I'll continue doing the things that I love, including updating this blog and immersing myself in photography.
As I said once before, as long as I have my faith, family, and friends, I know I can be joyful.

Just not today.

One day at a time though.

Also, I have to say that reading your sweet and supportive comments have made me realize just how amazing you all are. Thank you so much, you have no idea how much each one means to me.

Though sorrow may last through the night, joy comes in the morning. 
Psalm 30:5


Sarah said...

Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear this :(. I hope you're holding up ok. I've been through many break ups in my life (mostly them breaking up with me) and although it sounds cliche it does get better and you do meet someone better, even if it feels as though there is no one better at the moment. Hang in there xx

Almost Delightful

Lolita in the Mix said...

I am so sorry to hear! It's horrible to feel that way! And feelings have nothing to do with the time you spend together. I hope you'll feel better soon!

-xoxo- lorena

Margarita said...

oh, no, I want to punch him in the face, even though what happened might seem the right thing to do, you still don't deserve this pain!
Sorry, darling. so sorry.

Tanya Minxy said...

Im so sorry to hear that, I know what its like to be hurt. You will get better. Its going to be hard, but after some time you will feel better and better. Just keep doing what makes you happy and dont stop believing in love <3

Lolita in the Mix said...

I'm glad it made you feel better. Just remember that you are stronger then you think! Thanks for your comment dear! And yes, shoping is always good therapy!

-xoxo- lorena


Maiken said...

:( reading your post made me extremely sad and also brought back some ancient memories.. I know the feeling when you're crying so hard that your heart hurts and you can't stop it. it may seem like a hopeless case (and it always does seem like it) but I think I'm experienced enough to say time really makes everything better and you WILL meet the right person eventually. believe me, you will! when you're not waiting for him he will come. don't just give up on your beautiful personality :)

Maikeni blogi - part of me

The Chic Sheet said...

You will find someone else who cares about you the way you care about him ;) I hope you feel better soon love!


Kelly Ann said...

I am so sorry, keep your head up beautiful!

Sparkles and Shoes

va said...

Put your faith in God and pray to God about it . It really helps to make you stronger slowly but surely . You will be ok , hang in there . :)

Avi said...

I'm so sorry Linda :c I can't imagine how you feel right now. I was like this 2 years ago when I had your age. You are a wonderful and strong woman, you would be okay. Put your faith in God and your family.

Be strong.

va said...

and you can stop by my blog anytime to say hi . cheers

sip-n-wear said...

Aw man... Breaking up sucks... Linda, from my experiences, you'll be alright. I remember all the break ups and heartaches I had before... Cried so much... Like you, I wished I could just disappear... But I'm glad I didn't... I met my husband and I'm happier than I ever was in my previous relationships... You might not forget the memories, but you'll eventually forget him... Cheer up...! God has someone great in store for you! :)

Katie Q. said...

Oh my dear, that is just so sad! I remember reading over your posts about the two of you and I can really tell from them how much you love him. My hearts just breaks for you right now, you are such a sweetheart that I hate to see you going through heartbreak like this. I hope you have tons of family support going through this, it sounds silly but that really does help. If you ever want to rant or just vent or talk, email me anytime dear, I really wish you the best in going through this.

(And so sorry, I'm really dense about picking up on stuff, you just about have to beat me over the head before I realize something is up. I'd thought you were maybe just having some rough days. Now I wish it was just that rather than you going through this. So sorry about all of this.)

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oomph. said...

i never wish this upon anyone...but you are right in thinking that you need to NOT wait around! you don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you. you are better than that :)

time heals....hope you feel better.


Rose-et-Violet said...

Aw man, I'm so sorry :(
I know how hard it is, especially because every time you try to tell yourself that you can do it, and that it's not a big deal...your mind goes: what if it was?
but you'll get through this! it might take time, but once it's over, you're going to come out stronger, and happier.
Chin up and do try to smile. It helps :)


Nancy said...

Oh I hope you do feel better soon. This type of heartache is so tough but when you get through it, you come out stronger and wiser. I know this feeling all too well but, hopefully you will meet another man where you are both on the same page and able to love each other to the fullest.

Mica said...

Oh I am so sorry to read this Linda. We all know how you feel, everyone goes through this. It won't make it hurt any less or help you heal any faster, but we do know your pain. Don't feel harsh on yourself, 5months is a long time to be with someone especially when you are younger. It will hurt and it will get better.
There is good to come out of this though - although you may not see it at the moment. Think of how happy he made you, how well he treated you and know that you will never settle for anything less than that now. So when you do find Mr right, he won't be Patrick, he will be even better! You won't be happy with anything less :)
There is unfortunately no magic words I can say to help you heal, I wish I could. Will continue to pray for you.

Jessica said...

aw i am so sorry , a broken heart is the worst feeling of all. but you are such a wonderful strong woman i know you will get through this and you will certainly find your perfect match


Jenna said...

I'm so glad you have your vacation coming up that can give you something to look forward to and try to keep your mind off of things. I know you will enjoy it so much!

Nee said...

this is you song girl:

live goes on:) everthing will be alright in the end <3

Juneli said...

I understand that no words of sympathy can console you but you made the right decision to move on, be strong and happy as life is too short to dwell on sorrows!
Juneli from Fashionably Yours

Joyce said...

So sorry Linda :( But good for you for trying to move on instead of waiting for him to come back.And you are totally right, you will meet Mr.Right someday :) I hope you start feeling better. You are an amazing person, you can get through this!

Shawna Walker said...

I am sorry for you loss. You will find your prince charming when you least expect it.

Danie said...

Aw Im sorry to hear that you guys broke up. I hope you are doing well. One song that got me through a break up was Hold on by the Jonas Brothers. I never expected a Jonas brothers song would get me through anything and mean so much to me but that one did. The lyrics seriously gave me hope that everything will turn out okay no matter what happens.

"When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on"

Sarah Mira Park said...

Aw, relationships always come and go but these are the hardest kind. You can't force something to happen but I always tell myself that as long as I can walk away with a lesson learned, it's never a waste.

And the way I see it is that he can't be Mr. Right if he's not by your side until the end :) Keep your chin up pretty lady, every painful break-up will lead you to the man who will treat you right!

The Weekend Diary

Brae Lu said...

<3 :(

Lisa said...

I'm sorry to hear this, but it's totally HIS loss! You keep your head up high and keep being you. The right guy will come along. <3

The Lovely Memoir

erica marie said...

I'm so sorry to hear this, I could tell how much you cared about him. I've been there before (at the beginning of a breakup) and in the end I've always come out happier and feeling better about myself. Just keep doing what you love and know things will get better.

xo erica

aree1997 said...

So sorry about you. But your mind is right , you are only eighteen and there's a lot of time for finding your Mr Right :) He will be there , very soon with you :)
I know what are you feeling, as being a teenager I also got heart broken once. But girl , eat cup cakes :) It helps to recover ^_^

Aree With Umbrella

Ali Hval said...

Oh, Linda. I just adore you. I hope that you're coping well about this. I admire how courageous you are and how sweet you are to him and yourself... explaning everything so logically and with justifications... that really shows how strong of a person you are. <3 At the same time, it really is okay for you to feel and be sad and such about this until you get over it. I hope that you'll get better--it sounds like you're already coping pretty well. I wish I could be there to give you a big hug!

There will be many options for you in the future--you are an amazing, beautiful, and intelligent girl and any guy would be lucky to have you. <3

The Garage Starlets said...

I hope things will be better soon!
When you close one door, another is open!
I hope is for the best! I'm sure!

stylewithoutstyle said...

Understand exactly how you feel because the same thing happened to me a month ago :/ I also hope it will bi better...just keep blogging :)

Sandra Leiva said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! I hope you feel better soon!

*Sending hugs*


Marisa Violeta said...

I'm so sorry dear :/ It's so sad how things ended for both of you. I really hope you feel better soon. I had my heart broken for a couple of times and the best things you can do is just have fun doing the things you want and love yourself above anything else!


Bhushavali - Indian Fashion n Travel Blogger! said...

So sorry to hear this dear! As you said, immerse yourself in things you like and will make you feel better like photography or blogging. Take care dear!

Kristin said...

Oh dear I am so, so sorry you're going thru heartbreak! Sending hugs. Breakups hurt, but the hurt will fade, especially for such a great gal like yourself with loving friends and family to support you. You have so much going for you, you talented gal, now its "you" time as said above :)

Victoria said...

I'm so sorry to hear this! Be strong, the pain will go away. xx

- Victoria

Aya said...

Still so sorry to hear about the end of your relationship. Things will patch up and get better. I hope you find the happiness you're looking for soon! xo

Mary Lou said...

oh darling i´m really sorry to hear that, my boyfriend and i broke up about a month ago too, and i know how you feel right now, it hurt so much that i wanted to die because i thought i could´t stand it anymore, because the end came so quickly without i could seeing it.
But darling don´t loose your belief in love there will come mr right and you will be as happy as you deserve it!
a lot of love mary

Marilia and Cristina Maz said...

Everything will be ok! Don't worry!
It's gonna be difficult now but as the time passes, things will become better! Promise :)

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear this, but it's going to be ok! Of course it hurts now, but it'll get better. You're being very strong. :)You will find mr. right someday! :)

Hang in there!

Nieszka said...

I'm so sorry you have to deal with this sad situation. But don't worry. If it happened, it must be for the best. I truly think everything happens for a reason. You just opened up the door for mr. right to come along. It's tough and it will hurt but you will feel better in time. Just immerse yourself in doing the things you love and being with the people you love. You are special and unique and someday you and that special someone will find each other and love each other for who you both truly are. Don't ever settle. Hope you feel better soon. xx

Marsa said...

sorry to hear that hunn :( i hope things turn up for you!!! <3

Viv said...

I'm so sorry to hear this.. I know you touched upon the fact that you're young but seriously remember that fact. You have a lot of time ahead of you and looking towards the bright future you are definitely going to have is the right attitude. It'll hurt for a while but with good people you'll get through it faster than you think :)

Joy Shana said...

Oh am so sorry to hear that, everything happen for a reason to make you stronger, hope all goes well for you

Harija said...

I m sorry to hear about it, but I hope everything turn out alright! And remember everything happens for a reason!!

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omg nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! but you were that cute adorable couple that i didnt know but seemed so perfect from all the way over here in new zealand :(
but im sorry girl, i know how you feel xx


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CutestPrincess said...

i like the cardigan, there's a cute print of roses at the back!

It’s a GIRL Thing

Britney said...

I am very sorry to hear that you've broken up. It can be so painful particularly if you've committed so much. But just know that this too shall pass. And when you meet 'the one' you will end up giving him your whole heart. Not just a peace.
With much love

Dominika said...
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Dominika said...

When I read your previous post, I had a feeling that could be the reason and I was hoping I was wrong. It's really upsetting to hear that since what you had was special and truly enviable. I just want you to know that even though I took a break from blogging itself, I still keep reading different blogs on a daily basis and commenting on them. So, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always here- just drop me a line. :)

Anonymous said...

Sorry to read about your breakup. I've been there before and it's horrible. All I can say (and that's an advice that a friend gave me at the time) is that it will get better with time. It turned out to be true. Even though it took a while. Look forward, there is a whole life to live. Good things will come to those who believe. xo

Kym said...

Oh no; I just saw this post. I'm so sorry to hear it. I've been there before and I know how awful it feels. I also know that saying things like "you're an amazing, beautiful, creative girl that any guy would be lucky to call his girlfriend," doesn't help right now. But it's still true :) And maybe after a little while you'll come back to read this and it'll make you smile. :)

Hang in there. It will be better.
{big hugs}

Kim (A Very Sweet Blog) said...

hey stephanie, i had to backtrack on posts because i've been ill and away from blogging. i'm so sorry to hear this. guys do weird things. you're beautiful and trust me you'll find someone else even better (it always happens). i've experienced that hurt before too and just when you think it's the end of the world something better comes along. also, sometimes we're not meant to be with certain people (good or bad). take it as a sign to move on and move forward :)

Sabrilett said...

I know is like more than a week since you posted this but I'm really sorry to read what happened, I'm sure you'll move on and everything but it still hurts and you just want to fast forward to the moment when it doesn't any more. You're strong and you have a lot of friends by your side and on the other side of the screen who support you and will be there if you need us. Things happen for some reason, you might not be able to realize right now but eventually you will

Madeline Wainscott said...

I am so sorry to hear about this. It may take time, but you'll overcome this, especially with your faith in God. Last few posts on my blog, I wrote about my last boyfriend, who also broke up with me. And eight months later, I'm barely now moving on, and we only dated eight months. I seriously cried when I read this. I know your pain. I will be praying for you darling. God must have something better for you out there.

Love always,

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